But in the back of my head, there is still a voice that says – “this is what you asked for, do not deny it, embrace its beauty”.

Upon my first descent, the voice sounded distant and hollow. But with every further descent, my faith grows – and the voice becomes louder.

I feel that when I am corrected this voice will be loud, strong, and lead me through dark times.

Then again, I could be entirely wrong. Kabbalah has a wonderful ability to surprise.