I know you say to do our external chores, and taking care of our responsabilities first(as a wife, and as a mother), and that then after that we dedicate any free time to the study of Kabbalah.

Well, what if I feel more like studying Kabbalah, and in any free time from it, and once inspired by it I do my chores? Perhaps my egoism is trying to devour everything on his path? Would you enlighten me please?

Do not get me wrong, I do what is absolutely necessary to keep my home, and family functioning(cooking, cleaning, etc), including my expressions of love. Somehow though, I feel I rather be studying, and that I should start working on dissemination inmediately(and is precisely there and then, when the confusion sets in). Help please.

I’ve been studying Kabbalah since the beginners’ course started last January, I have noticed since last month though, that I’ve become more emotionless than before, but at the same time more tactful towards people. I feel fine, very fine overall indeed, though I wonder if this is a self-deceiving attitude? I suppose the hardest part is when “others” around expect me to react in a similar way about “tragedies of life” as they do, which I consider impossible to do.
Of course, regarding my sense of wellbeing, is all good, but just lately I’ve been experiencing what could be said to be “the dark night of the soul”? Well, more specifically…confusion, and spiritually aimless, sometimes I even wonder about my own sanity…Advise please!