http://www.laitman.com/2008/07/how-to-read-the-torah/ Kabbalah and the Meaning of Life - Michael Laitman's Personal Blog Fri, 12 Mar 2010 00:26:14 +0100 hourly 1 http://www.laitman.com/2008/07/how-to-read-the-torah/comment-page-1/#comment-3056 Kim Mon, 23 Mar 2009 03:31:03 +0000 http://www.laitman.com/?p=861#comment-3056 I love Bnei Baruch,...I'm very attached to the Rav, the instructors, the other students and people who work at disseminating,..I try to do what I can to be a part of the dissemination effort. Whereas I'm less critical (more accepting) of all things 'Bnei Baruch' , I find I am not any less tolerant of the people I'm close to in my day to day life. Its very hard for me to share,...I have very few possessions, but the few I do have I hold on to I take great care of, ...(without 'worshipping things',...just so that I'll have them when I need them later), which I think is reasonable. Now I'm in a situation where I have to share with a friend, we live together now, ...shes not very careful with her things (she leaves them all over the place, she uses stuff and doesnt put them back in place, things get damaged, lost, misplaced sooo very easilly,...so I'm hesitant to share mine. I mean I feel a really STRONG opposition to this. I saw myself as a pretty kind person, but now in this new situation I'm not sure. I'm not very open and trusting generally and now I have this overwhelming compulsion to hoard everything to protect myself and my daughter from being taken advantage of. Its a new situation,...I'm not used to living with anyone but my daughter. I know this Jewish proverb: The pious man says: Mine is yours and yours is yours. The wicked man says: Yours is mine and mine is mine. Am I being unfair to myself,...am I being unfair to my friend,...whats happening here, ...am I failing here, failing at practically applying the principles behind Kabbalah to the people directly in my life ? I love Bnei Baruch,…I’m very attached to the Rav, the instructors, the other students and people who work at disseminating,..I try to do what I can to be a part of the dissemination effort.
Whereas I’m less critical (more accepting) of all things ‘Bnei Baruch’ , I find I am not any less tolerant of the people I’m close to in my day to day life. Its very hard for me to share,…I have very few possessions, but the few I do have I hold on to I take great care of, …(without ‘worshipping things’,…just so that I’ll have them when I need them later), which I think is reasonable.
Now I’m in a situation where I have to share with a friend, we live together now, …shes not very careful with her things (she leaves them all over the place, she uses stuff and doesnt put them back in place, things get damaged, lost, misplaced sooo very easilly,…so I’m hesitant to share mine. I mean I feel a really STRONG opposition to this. I saw myself as a pretty kind person, but now in this new situation I’m not sure. I’m not very open and trusting generally and now I have this overwhelming compulsion to hoard everything to protect myself and my daughter from being taken advantage of. Its a new situation,…I’m not used to living with anyone but my daughter. I know this Jewish proverb:
The pious man says: Mine is yours and yours is yours.
The wicked man says: Yours is mine and mine is mine.
Am I being unfair to myself,…am I being unfair to my friend,…whats happening here, …am I failing here, failing at practically applying the principles behind Kabbalah to the people directly in my life ?

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